I find it funny that my last post is called “Existing On Time” and here I am fretting over the timing of this next blog post. Why am I fretting over it? Because it’s called: “Card of the Year”…
And not: “Card of 11 Months”….
Or, “Ten Months”….
Or, “Six Months”…
And at the rate I’m going, it might need to be called:
“Card of the Three Months”. GAH!
I was on time! I pulled my card at the beginning of January. I was excited to see two cards fly out and even more excited to see that my favorite card was one of them! After a few years of DOOM-DOOM-DOOM, I got my happy cards. Finally! I laid out my cards, made some coffee, and took a bunch of photos. Then, I kept the cards out and displayed them, for easy pondering and perusal. I figured that my brain would do what my brain does best– subconsciously ingest, then spit out some thoughts. All was going well, but then life…. Life just happens. Life got busy. I got a side job, in addition to my regular job, and I had a bunch of mom stuff I had to do, since, yes, I am a mom.
Back to the cards that I drew…..
The last few years have had me comntemplating the internal chaos of thoughts. Thoughts are a powerful and intangible source of both delight and despair. So many times, in my life have I worried over an event that would never play out as horribly as it did in my mind. So many times, my brain took my thoughts down the wild ride of “Choose Your Own Adventure…. OF DOOM!!!”
The past few years have had me contemplating how this negative mental chatter had been holding me back in my life. It’s amazing how much turmoil our inner worlds can cause those of us who overthink. I’ve thought a lot about that. Haha.
What happens when your internal chatter shifts from fear, to curiosity and exploration? What happens is that you start allowing yourself to discover what you’re capable of. Another thing that happens when you shift that chatter, is you discover some of your gifts, you remember who you are, and you find out what lights you up and makes you sparkle. Which makes my pulling the Sun card and the Princess of Wands serendipitously awesome! I’ve spent the last few years quieting my internal chatter and finding out who I am, what my gifts are, and what lights me up.
Unlike the Moon, which mirrors the light of the sun, the sun IS the source of its own light. The Sun card is about life force, the energy within each of us…. AND, is my favorite card in the deck. The card depicts two children dancing freely, filled with joy and enthusiasm…. Much like many of us did when we were young, silly, and thought we could be anything we wanted to be when we grew up. Children are not born with limiting beliefs, which is why we have to childproof our houses. Children want to get out there and try everything, do everything, and be anything. The Sun card in this spread is encouraging that inner child to be expressed once again, this time with the wisdom gained through life experience.
The Princess of Wands depicts what happens when you break through limiting beliefs and negative self-chatter. The tiger on the card represents fear. She is grabbing that tiger by the tail, and it is she who is taking that tiger for a wild ride. This card is what happens when we reconnect with that inner child- the fearless one, the fiery energy, the curious one, the one who is excited for adventure! The one that uses imagination to break through any limitations.
When I pulled these cards, the first story that flowed through my brain…. The first questions….. The first brainstorm internal dialogue session….. All pointed to this: When you’ve done the deep work. When you’ve found out who you are. When you become comfortable with yourself…. You still need to remember that the work never really ends. Do not acquiesce into complacency. We are living organisms that are constantly evolving into all that we can be. And I don’t mean that we can’t delight in our accomplishments. Abs-oh-fucking-lutely, celebrate you along the way! Just don’t let that light go out. Don’t dim that light to fit in. Remember….. Your true self is like the sun… You are a life force. You are meant to be bright. If someone else can’t deal with your brightness, remember this: Those who matter know that sunglasses exist…. So, keep on shining!
I’m going to end this here. Because really, this is all I had to say about the cards. It’s a lot to ponder. A lot to digest. And a lot to spit out in some sort of way. For me, I spit things out in creation. Any sort of creation. Perhaps, that’s the message I will take from my cards…. To become creative with my life, how I live it, how I make my cha-ching, how I express myself, and how I love.
Pulling a yearly tarot card is a fun alchemical game that anyone can play. It’s an easy way to kick start a new year, or… the next 11 months, as the case may be…. Providing oneself with a random and synchronous psychological focal point towards growth. The more you study any particular card, the more you can learn from it and use it as a mirror, reflecting back to you areas for potential growth and healing. Since life is a balance of light and dark, there aren’t really any bad cards and every card can be used for self-emprovement and self-empowerment. That being said, after a few years of pulling doom-doom-gloomy cards, I gotta say, it was fun to see two lighter cards fly out of my shuffle this year! HA!!
I’m gonna post this, as is…. Minimal editing and rethinking, because…. Well, I’ve got other things to do. HAPPY NEW YEAR-ish ❤
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